凱西的快樂天堂

親愛的媽:

今天已經是妳離開我們有半年時間的日子了~~

我仍然還是很想念妳~

我總是感覺妳只是出國去旅行，而不是到天國~

只是怎麼都等不到妳回來的這一天呢~~

每當我把兩個心愛的寶貝兒子送上床睡覺後，拖地洗衣整理一番之後，

能夠放鬆的坐在書房的電腦桌前，

常常想起的那個人就是妳~~

卻也常常讓我在這樣的夜晚變得很感傷~~

回憶妳過去對我們的好、對我們的嚴格、對我們的嘮叨‥‥

好想好想再擁有那樣的過去，即便是一次也好~~

我好想好想和妳一起分享我現在的幸福和快樂~~

好想帶妳過來跟我一起住我人生的第一間房子~

但老天爺卻把妳給帶走了，不讓我擁有這樣的天倫之樂。

妳不在了，少了一個家所必須要的精神支柱~

很多事情也都是我們必須自己學著去面對、處理~

家裡的重擔也從妳身上卸下，轉移到阿碰哥的身上了~

初一、十五拜拜要準備貢品水果、親戚朋友的紅白帖、照顧爺爺奶奶‥‥等

其實有時候看到哥這麼的辛苦，我也很於心不忍~

但‥又能如何呢? 我也很想替他分擔，

但畢竟我們各自都有家庭，

也正所謂「家家有本難念的經」~

所以，我能做的就是聽他訴訴苦，看看有沒有需要我幫忙的地方~~

至於我呢~

我想告訴妳的是:現在過得很幸福、很幸福~~

兩個寶貝兒子、衣食無缺、唯一就是老公長年不在身邊陪我們罷了~

我很清楚，魚與熊掌不能兼得~

現在所能擁有的一切，我已經覺得很滿足了~

既使是只剩24小時能活，我也不覺得我的人生會有遺憾~

我~~很開心的過每一天，是因為我真的很開心~~

也正因為妳已經不在我們身邊了，

所以我們每一個人才更應該過得開心一些~

妳在天國才不會有太多的掛念~~是吧!!對吧~

生活中有時難免會遇到一些挫折、不如意的事，

想哭的時候、累的時候，卻更容易想起妳~~

我希望能再跟妳撒撒驕、談談心~

只是‥‥‥現在都遲了~~而只能在部落格抒發一下~

但妳在天國別太擔心我哦~

天生樂觀外向的我，有很快速的恢復、充電的能力~

一覺醒來~又是新的一天了~~

現在的我，只是突然好想妳~~

好想知道妳在天國那邊好嗎?

媽:

我好想妳~~~

Train(追隨者合唱團)

-Drops of Jupiter(主唱寫給已故的母親)

很棒的一首歌~

now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when i know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way